Have some balls!! (Rant time)

If you’ve read any of my previous posts then you will know that I’m 19 and looking for work as well as working on my mental health… it’s not easy!! However, I have managed to get a few interviews and although unsuccessful, on the whole they have been pretty helpful and the companies have said they were impressed with me. This was all until an interview I had on Friday.

So let me go into a bit of detail. I went for a job as a teaching assistant at a junior school. I have some experience working with children in both a school and voluntary setting (just not paid work). So I go to this whole day interview with activities such as working in the class and to read and discuss a book with a year 4 child. They were super nice and friendly all day and I had a really pleasant experience on the day.

In this interview I was up against one other person- a woman with children, a teaching degree and experience working as a supply teacher at the school the interview was at- I had no chance but still I kept my hopes up and wished for the best.

The school said they would phone me later on Friday to give the verdict. So I wait all weekend and finally on Monday get the call.

As you can guess, I didn’t get it.

Obviously I was upset about this but I would’ve been a lot less angry about the outcome if they had told me a truthful reason as to why I didn’t get it. They said the reason I didn’t get it was I didn’t ask a year 4 child I had just met for the first time, enough questions on the two pages of Charlie and the chocolate factory he read me- really?? I did work experience in a school and when we did reading there it was about well, reading! I asked him some questions before we started, a couple in between and then some at the end (when they weren’t even observing). Am I meant to interrogate the poor kid?! Just tell me the truth. I know that the woman I was against has a load more experience, and there’s no harm in saying that- it’s just common sense. Don’t make me doubt myself and my abilities just to cover your own back. You are the headteacher of a large school- grow some balls and learn how to not bulls**t people about!!

And then to top it all off, at the end of the call he says I can go and volunteer for them one morning a week but there’s no guarantee of work. His tone of voice was so patronising and really made me angry. So I was pleasant, said thank you for your time and then waited until after the call to have a breakdown.

Finding work is hard enough. Having mental illness is bad enough. At least just be pleasant with me. Don’t be rude. Give me some feedback that I can actually rude and tell me the truth!!! I can take it.

Thankfully this has been my only experience like this *touch wood*. Although I was crazy angry and upset at the time, I have the type of personality that when people make me angry, I work even harder to prove them wrong. So I will continue to look for jobs, get a better one than I went for and they can go stick their job where the sun don’t shine!!!

Thanks for reading guys, I’m sorry how much of a rant this was but I definitely needed to get this off my chest!!

Zoe x